Need A Change

February 20, 2017

"The secret of change is to focus all of your energy, not on fighting the old, but on building the new".

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If you have noticed you can see I haven't been quite regular on my blog lately and of course I kind of feel guilty. I mean I have received so much love and support from so many people, I really want to write my blog pouring out my heart. But more than feeling guilty, I feel like something is missing in my life when I don't write my blog. I kind of feel incomplete, like there's some emptiness inside. There's so much to say but I am not being able to. And that is quite clear from the increasing number of posts in my draft. And I just hope this doesn't end up in the draft as well. I sort of feel low. Not sort of actually, I do feel low. My life has recently become very stagnant. I feel like I am stuck somewhere and not able to move. It's such a suffocating feeling.
Let's talk about this in details even though I don't know what to say because I am so lost. Right after My Not-So-Secret Diary completed one year, great things started to happen. I mean I did say in my blogiversary post that I will be collaborating with a lot of brands and fellow bloggers maybe and bring some interesting posts but trust me at that point of time nothing was sure. I just said that because I was so happy and proud of myself for completely one year of blogging. I just had faith in myself. And it felt like God himself had read that post and right after my Blog's birthday post, great things started happening to me. I got a call from POPxo and soon became a Campus Ambassador. And one after the other I started working with various brands. I had my 2nd professional MBBS exams in December but I was so dedicated I made sure I take out time for my blog too. This continued for the month of January too. I started getting so many mails and one of them was an invitation to Bangalore Fashion Week. I couldn't go but nevertheless I was very excited. And then my results came out and I cleared my exams too. Things have never been better. I go to college everyday, do all my classes from 8 in the morning to 4 in the afternoon. But then I get so tired that I am not able to do anything else. My life has become so monotonous that I can't take it anymore. I seriously need a change. I can't blame it on my tiredness. I have been tired in the past and still came up with some really nice posts. I feel like I am out of inspiration and that's because my life is so stagnant. Being the gypsy soul I am, I want to run away at times but I feel a sense of responsibility now, towards my parents and also towards the people I am going to treat later in life. Even though I thought this month would be uneventful but to my surprise I got an invite for The Sunburn Music Festival by Captain Morgan Rum and also did a shoot in collaboration with a fashion brand. But as I said, I need a change and a big one. I wish I could go on a trip like Australia again and do some self discovery because at this moment I need that the most. I don't really know what is going on inside of me but I just hope it passes and I can be myself again or maybe someone better. I really miss writing personal and travel posts. I try to be active on my social media as much as possible but nothing can replace the happiness I get when I write my blog. I really miss writing and talking about deep things with you all.

Thank you if you read everything till the end because this was way too much personal but I seriously needed to talk about it. I hope I can soon overcome this emptiness inside me and come up with better things for the blog as well as for myself.

Love,
Sumelika ♥

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5 comments

  1. Change is only constant in life. We also go up and down, high and low in life. We all also feel suffocated at times, and life seems monotonous. Believe me, this is a passing phase, and you will wake up all refreshed and with boundless energy.life has been kind and generous to you. Be thankful, grateful, happy and smile.:)

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  2. Change is only constant in life. We also go up and down, high and low in life. We all also feel suffocated at times, and life seems monotonous. Believe me, this is a passing phase, and you will wake up all refreshed and with boundless energy.life has been kind and generous to you. Be thankful, grateful, happy and smile.:)

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